Greetings and Faelicitations

It has been quite some time since I last engaged in writing of this sort. I find myself out of practice, and unsure of what I want to say.

My name is Alaereth Seriasin. I am currently incarnated on a world known to my people as Yyl'Nector.

As Earth reckons time, it has been over a decade since I was last able to make consistent, reliable contact with my host, Jarin. From my own subjective experience, it has been closer to a year, perhaps a year and a half.

For a long time, we both assumed the problem was one of connection. That the connection between us had weakened, or something was blocking it, or we were somehow more distant from one another than we previously had been. Most of our attempts at fixing it flowed from those assumptions. We tried investing the connection with more energy, we tried creating thin spots between Earth and Yyl'Nector, we tried ritual and energywork to bind us more closely together. Ultimately, none of it was successful.

So how am I here again, over a decade later? Two things. First, Jarin engaged in a practice that he first developed during our first year together. At the time, he had found it difficult to fully let go of the body, to "get out of the way" and allow me to fully take front. It has some overlap with exercises used for automatic writing. Over time it had become somewhat second nature for us, but engaging it in consciously once more set up the conditions necessary for reconnection.

Second, our ideas of one another had become misaligned and were in some ways too small. My identity, my understanding of myself, of who and what I am on a fundamental level, is not the same as it was when Jarin first hosted me. Then, I only had memories of a single life. Now, I have memories of three other lives, plus a fourth that I would describe either as concurrent or as myself but on a different "layer" of reality. These are in addition to roughly 15 years of experience here on Earth, hosted by Jarin. These have changed me, reshaped my understanding of myself, and helped me to mature as I have integrated them. But Jarin's idea of me was still very much limited to who I had been when we first met in this life. It was not wrong, but outdated, like expecting an adult to fit into the clothing they had worn when they were a child. By practicing "getting out of the way" again, he made room for all of me, not just the parts he expected. There are also aspects of his current identity that have changed since I last knew him, which I needed to make room for, though those are not mine to share.

All of this to say, simply, I am here, I am back, and I do not believe I will be losing touch again anytime soon.

Edited to add a link to an old introduction post for additional context, though please understand it is at this point quite out of date: https://alaereth.dreamwidth.org/1209.html